Darshani is doing this at her blog, and I thought I would do the same. It is sobering, and yet, hopeful!
Ten Worst Days of my life: (in chronilogical order)
1. When I returned from the summer holidays going into third grade, and my old teacher said, "Look at you, you have gotten really fat", and then she laughed, this uncontrollable laugh which hurt me deep inside. I felt unloved.
2. The day my sister moved away from our house (she was 18 and I was 10)
3. When I learned that I may never be able to get pregnant, or carry a baby to term. (at 19)
4. Not making the University Choral Ensemble (smaller speciality group) in my second year of college. This had a major impact on my not returning till years later.
5. Losing a pregnancy, that I never thought I would have, and with that hopes of being a biological mother.
6. Getting the news that the twins we were to adopt, were no longer available, that the teenage mother had decided to parent.
7. The day my x-husband hit Ravi on the head with a cooking pan, forcing me to make the choice between my children and my husband. (I chose the kids).
8. The day of my divorce.
9. The day I moved out of my house after the divorce, that I have lived in for about 10 years, leaving behind all those memories, the measurements on the wall of the kids, and the energy from nursing three babies and raising my kids.
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Ten Best Days of My Life:
1. The day I was born. I believe I have a purpose in this life, just like everyone else.
2. The day graduated highschool! Never so glad to get out of that place!
3. First day of college, moving into the dorm, signing up for classes; it was the first real taste of adult life, making my own choices ect.
4. The day of my wedding. I was so happy to pledge my love to my husband, and start a new life with him. Even though we are divorced now, I am so glad I met him, and fell in love with him. We had a wonderful beginning, and I am sure it would have continued to be wonderful if something hadn't happened to him, changing him.
5. My first positive pregnancy test. If I could bottle that excitement and sell it, I would be a millionaire.
6. The day that we got the referral for Ravi's adoption!! March 12th the FedEX man came to the door, and had me sign for a package from our adoption agency, and the cutest baby photos were within that packet! I was happy to finally begin that journey towards really being a mom!
7. The day I brought home Ravi from India. 11/97
8. The day I brought home Lakshmi from India. 10/00
9. The day I brought home Priya from India. 9/01
10. The day of my divorce. I say that because that day was the first legal day where the police could NO LONGER say, "I'm sorry mam, he has just as much of a right to be here on this property as you do, even though he is threatening you, upsetting the kids, and peaking through the windows at night!
So if you read my blog, please take a moment to do the same, 10 worst/best days of your life!
Jyotsna
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