Hi everyone,
I just noticed that I haven't posted since Mother's Day, or day after. It's been a long and busy month. First of all, having not gotten the child support from the month before, I'm still struggling financially. Perhaps by this July, I will have put the financial struggle behind me. I really hope.
News about us: I somehow got sick earlier in the month, and an asthma episode lowered my immune system causing me to be suseptable to pnuemonia. I ended up in the hospital. Then I spent 5 days with my parents, with them sitting at my bedside taking care of me. My mother slept on the floor in my room the first couple of nights, and my dad sat on my bedside, spooning into my mouth, an "old fashion" cough syrup of triple sec, sorghum and lemon. I think the sorghum was the old fashion part. It really settled down my death rattle of a cough, and I and they were able to sleep at night.
Finally I was able to go home, and what a mess the house was. The kids had been pulling out all the toys, all the games, all the video's for the first two or three days I was sick, and of course there was a sink full of dishes I hadn't washed, which had to be done. My mom came home with me and helped me get the beds changed, dishes done ect. It was a relief to see the floors swept, dishes done and toys picked up. Priya helped me with that fortunately.
My mom bought my medicine, which was nearly $150. I didn't have enough money to buy it, and thank the goddess she was willing. After taking the meds, on the very last night, I threw up the last one, along with my dinner (sorry, I know it's tmi). But somehow, I have continued to get better.
It's important that I get fully well, because.....
Ravi is having surgery Monday. Ravi was born with a congenital cataract in his left eye, and his surgeries when he was three years old pretty much caused another eye condition, which happens with almost all the children who have this original surgery. He has ambliopya. That means that his muscles in his left eye are not coordinated with his muscles in his right eye. He apparently has "some" stereo vision, where the eyes work together part of the time, but other times he has this wandering left eye that when he is relaxed, you can see it lazily moving out towards the left side of his body. This surgery will line his eyes up, and stop the double vision that he has been experiencing since at least December, if not longer. Apparently it takes time to realize what your eyes are doing. At first at the end of December, Ravi told me his eyes were doing something else, but then drew a picture of it for me, and it was clear he was having double vision. The pediatric opthamologist verified it for me, and then lowered the boom...Ravi would have to have surgery.
So he is going in, on Monday morning, and I am just praying that he is lovingly cared for by the doctor.
I am working on making dishes for the week, so I will be able to keep cooking to a minimum.
Lastly, Ravi and Lakshmi are soon due to visit their dad for one month. I have never been seperated from Lakshmi for so long, and only once with Ravi. I honestly don't know how I will take it. I am already doing some crying in bed at night, just thinking of waking up each morning without my babies. Divorce is cruel.
Well, I'll post an update on Monday, to let you all know how my big guy Ravi is doing. Hopefully he will be able to see normally in as little as three days. : )
For now, I'll leave you all with a photo of Ravi, (who is nearly 12 now). Thanks, Jyotsna
